well,its close to 6am now and i know im suppose to slp

im going to meet aju at 12noon tmr to pass her smth

so i wana grab some breakfast

well, i have the entire afternoon to slp

hmm,

thre are just a few things that kept on running inside my head tt is kinda annoying

i dont wish to share bt idk,

i just feel like blogging it

its nt tt many people are reading so..

sometimes,

i thought to myself, is there anyting interesting for u to share about ur secondary school life?

during my teenage yrs,

wat memories have i collected?

have i been through wat other teen girls did?

why is it many people say, teenage yrs are the most prominent part of their interesting lives?

cus thats when they are at the peak of prettiness?

or cus they meet different people and fall in love?

to tink about it,

i have nth much to say,

cus im too loyal?

or egoistic?

i wls say in the middle

idk why, im so afraid of even hearing about being someone's someone

to say i have been through a bad r/s,um nope

to say i dont believe in love,nope

to say,i hate guy,obviously not

to say im scared of commitments, i stick to one

so wats wrong?

i dont understand either

so u see, i want someone who sees things as i do,

i know thres no motive

i know

bt when i hear the word,girlfriend

its like, such a big word for me,so very yours

bt at the same time i want to be someone's gf one day when im nt as messed up anymore

perhaps

i need to get serious, im nt getting any young,yknow hahaha

and i tink im so terburu-buru

mayb i shld cancel the plan,idk, im nt looking forward for it

i swear

idk wat i am doing,

i've been doing things on impulse now a days

really,

i feel terrible

i get angry very quickly,

i respond to people without even tinking

some may not realise it bt

i know

i say things which i dont mean at all cus im alrdy so vex

idk wats my motive

my mind is clearer now and that is why i've been thinking about the big picture

instead of venting my anger which was initially created by me

why, is tt im so messed up?

arghhhhh!

why cant i be as simple minded as many?

u will nvr understand me

until i do.

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