u might think that i am talking abt just one guy through out my blog bt let me tell u this,
u dont noe anyting abt me.
thre are a couple of exception guys in my 19 yrs of living
and i cant be with any of them
CANT
i have my reasons and one of them just made me feel so terrible/sad/sank/the sinking feeling that u get and the only way to get rid of tt feeling is to cry
i felt so pathetic and i hate that
bt i know if i cry hard enough,
i'll be over it in no time!
idk, tts how my body works i guess
yes, is tt called happy?
hah, it suck.
im tired of these stuff.
i tried my very best nt to experience heartbreaks and shits bt end up, i still have to feel how it feels like.
unfair or what?
i cant run away from the fact tt im a teenager and i have to face all these.
mayb i shldnt
mayb i shld just be like other teenagers who get into a r/s and break
then i'll get used to it
and i dont have to feel anyting at all
isnt it good?
i'm having a very sad day tt if i cld have a book of history, i'd write tis down in it.
and laugh at myself,a yr ltr
knowing how dumb i was now
u got no idea how serious i am right now
i'll be that happiest girl.
i'll always have this phrase at the back of my mind;
im smart and pretty, of course i'll meet someone like me and if not, im still better than u.
and u'll wish u're the guy i am w.
